Whatever your passion turns out to be is a combination of what you’re into, your circumstances, and what happens to fall across your path, added to what you decide to spend your time on and what you’re willing to take risks to do more of, with a just a tiny dash of natural talent.
You have an frighteningly long list of things to do, many with deadlines, many of those deadlines pressing. Have you gotten traction on those things? No? I can tell you why, without even knowing what they are: you don’t know your next action.
Idea Debt is when you spend too much time picturing what a project is going to be like, too much time thinking about how awesome it will be to have this thing done and in the world, too much time imagining how cool you will look, how in demand you’ll be, how much money you’ll make. And way too little time actually making the thing.
You want to make creative work. You can’t shake that desire, but maybe you also can’t figure out how to make it happen in your already-packed life. Maybe you imagine that someone like me, who gets a lot of stuff done, that I have a simpler life, somehow. I wish.